I hate my ability to have the strongest pull to people when they’re going through tough shit.

Like I’ll go years not thinking about someone and then one day I’ll wake up and I can’t get them out of my thoughts.

And I’ll ignore it for a long time, but eventually I always give in and it’s always during something they’re going through.

Fuck that shit.
These people don’t need me showing up.
Half the time it’s people who can’t stand me.
Like that’s what they need when they’re stressed out.

How can I be so completely apathetic. Clinically.
But some how I have this internal empathetic radar for anyone who has ever been close to me in my life at any point in time.

Last time this happened my ex best friends mother had died two days before I messaged them. I come out of the word work like yo!!! How you been?!? Fml.

I will not pry.
I will not push.
I’m not going to be helpful.
Walk away.